AT THE LIBRARY

Hey there lookin' at me
Tell me what do you see
But you quickly turn your head away
Try to find the words I could use
Don't have the courage to come up to you
My chance is looking a bit gray

Starting across the room
Are you leaving soon?
I just need a little time

What is that drives me mad
Girls like you that I never had
What is it about you that I adore?
What makes me go so insane
That makes me fell so much pain?
What is it about you that I adore?

Why did you have to leave so soon?
Why did you have to walk away?
Oh well it happened again
She walked away with her boyfriend
Maybe we'll meet again some day

DON'T LEAVE ME

I'll go for miles
'Till I find you
You say you want to leave me
But you can't choose
I've gone thru pain
Every day and night
I feel my mind is going insane
Something I can't fight

Don't leave me

A blank expression
Covering your face
I'm looking for directions
For out of this place
I start to wonder
If you'll come back
I feel the rain storming 
After thunder
I can't hold back

I WAS THERE

Looking back upon my life
And the places that I've been
Pictures, faces, girls I've loved
I try to remember when
Faded memories on the wall
Some names I have forgotten
But each one is a memory I
Look back on so often

I look into the past
I want to make it last
I was there

Looking back what I have done
There's lots more life to live
At times I fell overwhelmed
I question what I can give
But I don't let it get me down
Or cause me too much sorrow
There's no doubt about who I am
I always have tomorrow

Looking back upon my life
Faded memories on the wall
Looking now at who I am
I don't let it get me down

DISAPPEARING BOY

Now you see me, now you don't 
Don't ask me where I'm at 
'Cause I'm a million miles away 
Treated like a forbidden heal
Don't say my thoughts are not for real
Or you won't see me again 

Am I here or am I there
Or am I playing on the stairs
Am I in my room with my toys 
I am the disappearing boy 

When I walk in crowded rooms 
I feel as if it is my doom 
I know that I don't belong 
In that room I see her 
I see her and she's with him 
I turn and then I'm gone 

Don't call me up 'cause I'm not home 
My whereabouts are now unknown 
I vanished from all your joy 
I'm the disappearing boy 

I have my doubts 
Of where I belong
It's something to think about

GREEN DAY 

A small cloud has fallen 
The white mist hits the ground 
My lungs comfort me with joy 
Vegging on one detail 
The rest just crowds around 
My eyes itch of burning red 

Picture sounds 
Of moving insects so surreal 
Lay around 
Looks like I found something new 

Laying in my bed 
I think I'm in left field 
I picture someone, I think it's you 
You're standing so damn close 
My body begins to swell 
Why does 1 + 1 make 2 
Picture sounds 
Of moving insects so surreal 
Lay around 
Looks like I found something new 

GOING TO PASALACQUA

Here we go again, infatuation 
Touches me just when I 
Thought that it would end 
Oh, but then again it seems 
Much more than that but 
I'm not sure exactly what you're thinking 

I toss and turn all night 
Thinking of your ways of effection 
But to find that it's not different at all 
I throw away my past mistakes 
And contemplate my future 
That's when I say... 
What the hey! 

Would I last forever? 
You and I together, hand and hand
We run away (far away) 
I'm in for nasty weather 
But I'll take whatever you can give
That comes my way (far away) 

16

Every night I dream the same dream 
Of getting older all the time 
I ask you now, what does this mean? 
Are these problems just in my mind? 
Things are easy when you're a child 
But now these pressures have dropped on my head 
The length I've gone are just long miles 
Would they be shorter if I were dead 
Every time I look in my past 
I always wish I was there 
I wish my youth would forever last 
Why are these times so unfair 

Look at my friends and see what they've done 
Ask myself why they had to change 
I like them better when they were young 
Now all these times are rearranged 
I look down and stand there and cry 
Nothing ever will be the same 
The sun is rising, now I ask why? 
The clouds now fall and here comes the rain 

ROAD TO ACCEPTANCE

I always waste my time just wondering 
What the next man thinks of me 
I'll never do exactly what I want
And I'll sculpt my life for your acceptance 

I feel forgotten 
Feel like rotting 
(Do you feel the same?) 
(Do you feel the same?) 
Adolescence 
Just can't make sense 
(It's calling my name) 
(It's calling my name) 

I take a look around 
And all the things I've found
I call it blind hatred 
If you'd stop a while 
And maybe if you'd smile 
You would realize that 
We're all the same 
It's just like our brain 
When it apes insane 
We feel the same pain 

All my life I've seemed to have this need 
I think at times it even turns to greed 
We all want to join some family 
We'll even sacrifice a moral changing

REST

Hey can you hear me?
I'm calling your name 
Hello? Or is this goodbye? 
The gleam in your eyes 
It troubles my brain 
Will I see it again? 
So I can rest my head 

Angel...Angel! Dancing away 
As all of my thoughts get rearranged Angel...Angel! Turning away 
Just when thing seem 
To have changed
So I can rest my head 

THE JUDGE'S DAUGHTER

Princess in a school girl's dream 
May I please speak with you? 
I'm having troubles with control 
And it's all because of you 
Today I kept on falling down 
I thought it was the street 
So I look down at my shoes 
They were on the wrong feet 

I find it hard to be myself 
(Can you please explain?) 
I do not think that it's my health 
(You're the one to blame) 
You're the one I wish I had 
And now my girlfriend is getting mad 
(I cannot call this sane) 

Today as I was walking down 
You bumped into me 
You said "excuse me" and walked away 
As I dropped to my knees 
I prayed to the being in the sky 
That my parents told me of 
I asked about you but no reply 
No clues about your love! 
My girlfriend left me on the phone 
I'm pathetically left here alone 
(I cannot call this sane)

Can we find a way 
So that you can stay 
I think I'm gonna pop 

PAPER LANTERNS

Now I rest my head from
Such an endless dreary time 
A time of hopes and happiness
That had you on my mind 
Those days are gone and now it seems 
As if I'll get some rest 
But now and then I'll see you again 
And it puts my heart to the test 

So when are all my problems
Going to end?
I'm understanding now that 
We are only friends 
To this day I'm asking why 
I still think about you 

As the days go on I wonder 
(Will this ever end?) 
I find it hard to keep control 
When you're with your boyfriend 
I do not mind if all I am is 
Just a friend to you 
But all I want to know right now 
Is if you think about me too... ?

WHY DO YOU WANT HIM?

I saw you standing alone 
With a sad look on your face 
You call him on the phone 
Looks like he left you 
Without a trace 
Tears falling out of your eyes
He's living in a disguise 

You've been feeling bad for so long 
You wonder if it's right or wrong 

Now many days have gone by 
And you still just sit there and cry 
You're feeling bad for yourself 
His memory will always dwell 
You're so obsessed with his love
That's why push came to shove 

You've been feeling bad for so long 
You wonder if it's right or wrong 

409 IN YOUR COFFEEMAKER

I sit in the state of a daydream 
With all of your words flying over my head
Even more time gets wasted 
In a daze 

It should seem obvious to you 
Your screams and cries are never going to work 
And all of your time gets wasted 
In my daze 

And I'm looking back now 
At where I have gone wrong 
And why I could not seem to get along 
My interests are longing 
To break from these chains 
These chains that control 
My future's aim... 

I sit in the state of a daydream 
With all of your words flying over my head
Even more time gets wasted 
In a daze 

Maybe I'm just too damn lazy 
Or maybe I was just brainwashed 
To think that way 
And all of your time gets wasted 
In my daze 

KNOWLEDGE

I know that things are getting tougher 
When you can't get the top off from 
the bottom of the barrel
Wide open road of my future now... 

It's looking fucking narrow
All I know is that I don't know nothing
We get told to decide
Just like as if I'm not going to change my mind
All I know is that I don't know nothing
Whatcha gonna do with yourself
Boy better make up your mind... 

Whatcha gonna do with yourself boy
You're running out of time
This time I got it all figured out
All I know is that I don't know nothing... 
And that's fine 

1,000 HOURS

Starlit night 
The moon is shining bright 
You are the one I need 
Up at your window 
I see a shadow 
Silhouette of your grace 
Here's this flower 
I picked for all the hours 
That you've spent with me 
The one I love 
That I've been dreaming of 
Sailing across the sea

Let my hands flow through 
Your hair
Moving closer 
A kiss we'll share 
Passionate love to be all night long 
We'll never break, as one too strong 

Nothing's more 
Than what our love is for 
As I kiss your cheek 
Oh so softly 
Hands flowing down my back
1,000 hours, I'll never leave 
Our romance 
Is a love trance 
And now we'll never part 
1,000 hours 
Of such a love shower 
We'll never stop, once we start 

DRY ICE

Late last night I had a dream 
And she was in it again 
She and I were in the sky 
Flying hand in hand 
I woke up in a cold sweat 
Wishing she was by my side 
Praying that she'll dry tears 
Left on my face 
I've cried 

Oh I love her 
Keep dreaming of her 
Will I understand 
If she wants to be my friend 
I'll send a letter to that girl 
Asking her to by my own 
But my pen is writing wrong 
So I'll say it in a song 
Oh I love you more right now 
More than I've ever loved before 
Here's those words straight from these lips 
I'll need you forever more

ONLY OF YOU

I wish I could tell you 
But the words would come out wrong 
Oh if you only knew 
The way I felt for so long 
I know that we're worlds apart 
But I just don't seem to care 
These feelings in my heart 
Only with you I want to share 
The first time I caught a glimpse of you 
Then my thoughts were only of you 
I hope that when time goes by 
You will think the same about me 
Many nights awake I lie 
I only wish that you could see 
I know that we're only friends 
I hope this feeling never ends 
If I could only hold you 
It's the only thing I want to do

THE ONE I WANT

Sitting in my room last night 
Staring at the mirror 
I couldn't find a reason why 
I couldn't be near her 

'Cause you are the one that started 
To make me feel this way 
And every night I'm thinking 
About the words you'd say 

Pictures going through my mind 
When we're together 
All these long and sleepless nights 
Will I ever get better 

Now you know how I feel
This love is forever 
You make my life seem so unreal 
Will I ever get better? ...

I WANT TO BE ALONE

I lockmyself inside my room 
I wanna be alone 
With you around, you'll only add on 
I wanna be alone 
Just let me be alone with my thoughts
I wanna be alone 
With you around, you'll only add on 
I wanna be alone 

Please don't think I'm crazy 
I don't want you to understand 
My mind is growing hazy 
To hell with your helping hand 
Why don't you just leave me alone 

This conflict is my own 
Keep your sources away from me 
That's all 

2,000 LIGHT YEARS AWAY

I sit alone in my bedroom

Staring at the walls

I've been up all damn night long

My pulse is speeding

My love is yearning

I hold my breath and close my eyes

and dream about her

Cause she's 2000 light years away

She holds my malakite so tight so...

Never let go

Cause she's 2000 light years away

I sit outside and watch the sunrise

Lookout as far as I can

I can't see her, but in the distance

I hear some laughter,

We laugh together

ONE FOR THE RAZORBACKS

Juliet's trying to find out what she wants but she don't know

Experience has got her down

Look this direction, I know it's not perfection, it's just me...

I want to bring you up again now

I'm losing what's left of my dignity

A small price to pay to see that you'r happy

Forget all the disappointments you have faced

Open up your worried world and let me in 

Juliet's crying cause now she's realizing love can be

Filled with pain and distrust

I know I am crazy, and a bit lazy

But I will try to bring you up again now

WELCOME TO PARADISE

Dear mother, can you hear me whining'?

It's been three whole weeks since

 I have left your home

This sudden fear has left me trembling'

Cause now it seems I am out

 here on my own

And I'm feeling so alone

Pay attention to the cracked streets and

 the broken homes

Some call it slums some call it nice

I want to take you through a wasteland I like to call my home

Welcome to Paradise

A gunshot rings out at the station

Another urchin snaps and left dead on his own

It makes me wonder why I'm still here

For some strange reason it's still

now feeling like my home

I'm never gonna go

Dear mother, can you hear me laughing'?

It's been six whole months since

 I have left your home

It makes me wonder why I'm still here

For some strange reason it's still

now feeling like my home

I'm never gonna go

PRIVATE ALE

I wonder down these streets all by myself

Think of my future now

I just don't know

I don't seem to care

I stop to notice that

I'm by your home

I wonder if you're sitting all alone

Or is your boyfriend there

Because I feel so right

Let my imagination go

Until you're in my sight

And through my veins temptation flows

So I sit down here on the hard concret

Think of my future now

I just don't know

I don't seem to care

So I sit across the street from your home

I wonder if you're sitting all alone

Or is your boyfriend there

DOMINATED LOVE SLAVE

I want to be your dominated love slave

I want to be the one that takes the pain

You can spank me when I do not behave

Mack me in the forehead with a chain

Cause I love feelin' dirty

And I love feelin' cheap

And I love it when you hurt me

So drive those staples deep

I want you to slap me

and call me naughty

Put a belt sander against my skin

I want to feel pain all over my body

Can't wait to be punished for my sins

ONE OF MY LIES

When I was younger I thought the world

circled around me

But in time I realized I was wrong

My immortal thoughts turned into just dreams of a dead future

It was a tragic case of my reality

Do you think you're indestructible

And no one can touch you?

Well I think you're disposable

And it's time you knew the truth

Cause it's just one of my lies!

Why does my life have to be so small?

Yet death is forever

And does forever have a life to call its own?

Don't give me an answer cause you

Only know as much as I know

Unless you're been there once

Well I hardly think so

I used to pray all night

Before I lay myself down

My mother said it was right

Her mother said it too...

Why?

80

My mental stability reaches its bitter end

And all my senses are coming unglued

Is there any cure for this disease 

someone called love

Not as long as there are girls like you

Everything she does 

questions my mental health

It makes me lose control

I just can't trust myself

If someone can hear me slap some sense into me

But you turn your head and I end up talking to myself

Anxiety has got me strung out and frustrated

So I loose my head or I bang it up against the wall

Sometimes I wonder if I should be left alone

And lock myself up in a padded room

I'd sit and spew my guts out to the open air

No one wants to hear a drunken fool.

I do not mind if this goes on

Cause now it seems I'm too far gone

I must admit I enjoy myself

80 please keep taking me away

WHO WROTE HOLDEN CAULFIELD?

A thought burst in my head and I need to tell you

It's news that I for thought

Was it a dream that happened long ago?

I think that I just forgot

Well it hasn't been the first time

And it sure does drive me mad

There's a boy who fogs his world and now he's getting lazy

There's no motivation and frustration makes him crazy

He makes a plan to take a stand but always ends up sitting.

Someone help him up or he's gonna end up quitting

I shuffle through my mind

To see if I can find

The words I left behind

Was it just a dream that happened long ago?

Oh well..

Never mind.

WORDS I MIGHT HAVE ATE

Now it seems I can't keep my mind of you

My brain drifts back to better days we've been through

Like sitting on blacktop of the school grounds

The love I bitched about I finally found

But now it's gone and I take the blame

So there's nothing I can do but take the pain

Why?

Now I dwell on what you remind me of

A sweet young girl who sacrificed her love

As for me... I am blind without a cause 

And now I realized what I have lost

It was something real that I could have had

Now I play the fool

whose stable soul's gone bad

Why?

Tell me the words I might have said

That's pumping pressure deep inside my head

Was it bad enough to be too late?

Just tell me the words I might have ate

SWEET CHILDREN

See a young girl so soft and blonde

Doesn't attack me but she did once

Intoxications in her veins

Sweet young boy plays with her brain

Lydia'll bring to life

What are your chance not to oblige 

Putting his hand on her thigh

Ability has now been ripped

Take it away, I'd rather sit

Sweet children, sweet children,

sweet children. Remember when

Johnny's playing fun and games,

or else he's in the storage shed

Running from the light of day,

or maybe lie and celebrate

The funny circus from his head

Follow me if you understand

I'll trick her so she'll do it

Then I'll sing and now we run

Sweet children, sweet children,

sweet children. Remember when.

BEST THING IN TOWN

Come with me and let's go for a ride

Follow me to the other side

As I sit around and watch you pout 

Cause I know that you're the

Best thing in town 

Best thing around

Best thing in town 

Best thing around

Running wild and always running free

Doing things that I have never seen

Eerie colours and all I see are sounds

Now I know that you're the

Best thing in town

Best thing around

Best thing in town

Best thing around

STRANGELAND

Looking at the clouds in the sky

floating image in my mind

land of beautty land of grace

now I wonder where this place is from

evidence is everywhere

I start to run and now I'm sacred

strange things all around

everyone come to this place I've found

I'll fell what it's like

to be wantedand wonder why

unlock doors will be open

no more crys

I'm feeling psyched

walking wonder why

all my joys are open

no more cries

my eyes are clear abd now I'm cured

I only wanna be for sure

get in my mind and you will find

mother love for all mankid

you ride away

MY GENERATION

Well, people try to put us down.

Talkin' bout my generation.

Just because we get around.

Talkin' bout my generation.

The things they do look awful cold.

Talkin' bout my generation.

I hope I die before I get old.

Talkin' bout my generation.

My generation.

Why don't you all just fade away?

Talkin' bout my generation.

And don't try to dig what we all say

Talkin' bout my generation.

I'm not trying to cause a big sensation.

Talkin' bout my generation.

I'm just talkin' bout my generation.

Talkin' bout my generation.

My generation.

(Break it, fuck that shit! )